I'm a reporter but am not quite aware of latest news, of what happens around me and throughout the globe. More specifically I'm a political reporter (i.e. that who covers political stories), but avoid reading political news as far as I can.
I have no interest indeed to force myself to religiously follow every development of political cases, as my fellow political reporters usually do.
Covering politics is not my choice; and having to get stuck with those issues --which are getting increasingly tense and immense during the period surrounding legislative and presidential elections buzz-- just makes me sick.
It is enough I do most of my days heavily labored in covering the intriguing, maddening political maneuvers. I don't want my leisure to be fulfilled with the stuff, too, especially when even my days off are irresponsibly cut for the sake of the political reports.
Who cares about politics? You cannot possibly love it when you gain no benefit out of it yet at the same time have to be heavily exposed to all kinds of intrigues, inconsistencies, cheating and attacking of one another devilishly in it.
Such as in the legislative elections, you previously believe that this political party deserves your vote because it seems clean, has good track records and consists of a troop of bright party members.
But that easy, when you follow their political maneuvers, you find that they are not as nice as you thought. They are intriguing, do disagreeable stuff, and turns very disappointing to your eyes.
Or in presidential race; you formerly believe that this candidate is better than the others, but you see then how he refuses to admit his defects and promises no changes.
I hate those who can only make promises but not fulfill them, but I also hate those who don't even think it is necessary to promise and at least try to make some changes.
Journalists specially covering certain issues, particularly those having done it for years, will either turn into experts in or become skeptical toward everything related to the issues.
Most of those I know are unfortunately among the latter.
I used to dislike journalists' skepticism, believing it was no other than their pathetic attempts to sound critical and appear no different to their peers. Becoming skeptical toward anything was likely the highest norm among journalists; that was what I thought.
But, now, after going through all the stuff myself; after my editors overwork me, cut my holiday right and add my work hours without compensation, and force me to be six days per week, fourteen hours per day exposed to the devilish, intriguing, maddening and hectic political buzz, and even tell me to alertly sharpen my ears for circulating gossips; I have unwillingly likewise turned into one of those highly skeptical persons.
It drives you mad writing the often very disagreeable stuff with your heart, writing how those human beings can treat one another so mean. So I learn not to feel and view, but only to think of how I can complete my stories soon, of how I can do them without sounding like siding with one of the parties or candidates, and of how I can get well paid with my own hard work.
Maybe not all politicians are rubbish. Maybe some, or even many of them are honest and dedicated politicians who indeed get involved in politics because they feel strong inner push to improve the management of this country.
But those intrigues blur everything. Quoting U2, I would say that "Now I can't be sure of anything. Black is white, and cold is heat..." in politics.
And instead of reading political news or watching political debates on TV, I'd rather spend my days off reading light novels or watch Spongebob Squarepants.
