If I had no that self-defense mechanism to tackle with so many, varied problems in life, I would have gone mad, or would have been dead of suicide.
Gosh, I wonder could we ever live without problems. They are there all the times, haunting our every step, driving us mad!
Sometimes of course the problems are tolerable, but a lot of times they aren't.
And this is when our self-defense mechanism helps us. Without such thing, I'm sure the number of people committing suicide globally would have been much higher than now.
Billy with his 24 different personalities, or Sybil with her 16 personalities...those are examples of people having rather complicated self-defense mechanism. Without being someone elses, if they become their single self only, they wouldn't likely be able to face their very cruel surroundings.
In my case, I don't turn into a schizophrenia --thank God-- I still have full consciousness. But, I protect myself from both mental and physical destruction by creating my own world, in which those hurting me are not there and I live in my dream lands.
I create this world either by simply imagining myself in other places; or by writing fictions in the form of short stories or novels, the worlds where I don't necessarily exist. In such fiction worlds, there are different characters that could be transformations of me, or just someone completely different but whose personality resembling mine.
I have heard those who forget things as a self-defense mechanism. If they keep horrible things they've experienced in their memories, they could go insane, or they can't even keep on living.
I think I have a little of such mechanism, too. In general, I remember things I've experienced, but I sort of forgetting all the bad emotional or psychological sensations I endured during the gloomy experiences. And I thank God for that, indeed I do.
I know running away is not a solution. But, sometimes, when things are really out of your control and you can't reject them...well, the best is running, for a while, and then come back after you get stronger, or leave it forever...
Self-defense mechanism...I really think it's a blessing.
And what I did earlier today was running to my own dream world. And now, I will try to forget all the sucking stuff!
